一个单身的女孩，当她遇上了一个喜欢她的他，她会幸福吗？会快乐吗？还来不及感受到被追求，就已经开始恋爱的两个人会开心，幸福的走下去吗？女孩或许刚开始时不在乎这些，但女孩真的能永远都不在乎吗？开始时，女孩真的可以不在乎这些。就连会不会得到旁人的祝福她都可以不理。女孩觉得只要他们俩彼此相爱就够了。但日子久了，女孩开始在乎这一切一切。女孩开始在乎男孩对她说的每一句话，旁人说的每一句话。女孩为了让男孩和她身边的每一个人开心，不断的去达到别人的要求。就算要女孩牺牲自己就想要的东西，女孩也在所不惜。女孩也渐渐的开始觉得自己活在世上是为了让别人开心，完成别人的要求。可是，女孩却常常告诉自己不要去在意这些事情。不过，在不知不觉中，每当到了入眠前夕，那些女孩不想在乎的事情又一一的浮现出来。每晚女孩总是在泪流满面的情况下入眠。有时，女孩甚至怀疑自己得了忧郁症。女孩想把不开心的东西都告诉男孩，却又担心男孩听后会有设么反应，所以女孩只好选择一直把这一切的不开心深深的埋在自己的心理。

在等待英文的当儿，无聊的我突然想到这里写写一些东西。。
现在已经是凌晨三点了，我还在等，看来今晚时不用睡觉了。那，明天的课如何呢？翘课吗？还是去班上睡觉呢？还不懂。。天亮了在打算吧！！！哈哈哈哈。。
今年算是过了一个不这么开心的新年吧。家里突然少了两个人，整个气氛都不一样了。我一直很后悔，为何要来那么远读书？在家乡读不就好咯。。他们离开的时候我都不在他们的身边，就连最后一面（婆婆）都没见到。。虽然，婆婆从来没有疼爱过我和姐姐，也没有承认我们是他的孙女，但，他依然是我唯一的婆婆。所以，随着年龄的增长，我也开始懂事，不再像以前恨他，相反的，有时回去，还会去关心和照顾他。可是现在已经没有这个机会了。人是不是总是要在失去了才懂得珍惜？无论如何，希望他可以到一个快乐的地方。

i miss my sis a lot ~~~

the day before yesterday, i dreamed about my sister. saw she waving her hand to me just like saying good bye to me. after i woke up, i cried. whenever i think of her, i feel really sad and cried non-stop. i really miss her a lot and a lot lot lot~ today, in class, i lost control again. i cried infront of my friends... i really hope that i can control myself, but i failed to do that...why??? it is just a simple things. my emotion was really unstable today. i started to cried suddenly and thinking non-sense. sometimes i feel really suffering and need someone to talk to. but somehow when i try to talk to someone, i just can't speak out. maybe because i scared my friends will feel it is very irritating... that why whenever i feel like going to burst, i will start blogging. in the end, my blog was full with sad story~ T.T
what should i do to let my life better and happier??? this few days were really tiring me and i really give up in everythings. but no matter how, i still have to pretend to be ok infront of my friends and settle all the assignment..hope i can cope in my study and be a happy girl....