复杂的心情。。。

最近发现到很多身边的朋友都很不开心。让我不禁也回到了以前不开心的自己。我又再次的回到了那封闭自己，不想让别人知道自己在想设么的自己。。。我真的很不像要再次的回到那不开心的世界，但，不知不觉，我已再次的踏入了那个世界。。碰巧今天又看到了‘老朋友’的一些照片，真的让我控制不了自己的情绪。那些照片让我想起了以前中学不开心地回忆。我一直都很努力的把自己从不开心变成开心，可是，看来我四年的努力要白费了。。。四年前的我，总是面带笑容，装作很坚强，其实，又有谁会了解真正的我呢？那种感觉真的快把我给逼疯了。我真的希望可以逃离这一切，到一个没有人知道，每人认识我的地方。设么都不要想，过一个简简单单，开开心心的生活。。。

rainy day...

everyday is a rainy day at JB...hmm~dun knw how about my hometown and others place in this world...i am so boring,don't know what can i do.so i just listen to the music and typing this blog...perhaps i can start to do my assignment that make me suffocate,but,human being are always so lazy.hahahaha~so,ehem~what i want to do after finish typing is have a nice nap...that's all the nonsense that what i want to say or write or type...bye bye~i am coming my sweet dream... @_@

A brand new sem.....2nd year 2nd sem....

Is a new sem again....time just pass by so fast.1st day lecture,as usual,i was sharp on time when i reached the room...what has shocked me is my english lecturer,what a hardworking lecturer he is.he is already infront of me when i step into the room.anyway,it doesn't border me...what really make me feel sick is the assignment he gave to us.AN INDIVIDUAL ASSIGNMENT!!!oh my goodness...what should i do...i suddenly lose my way and really feel stressful...and it has to be done around 10 pages by hand written.on the same day,another assignment thrown down to us by another lecturer again...this is no better...a group assignment which we have to find a male group leader,an assignment that have to done more or less like a thesis..next day,which is today,a familiar lecturer,which is my former lecturer gave us another big assignment...have to find a case study and when to that place and interview that management department staff...huh~what a big project i have in this sem...another 2 subject to go.i really have to build up myself and let my heart stronger...anyhow,i just feel that i am a problematic girl,or somehow a choosy girl,i think...i don't know...but arghh...just let it be..i am just feeling so stress and need to write out some nonsense at here.. :)anyway,now my room outside is full of smelly smoke and i heard some thunder calling...so i have to quickly off my laptop... >.@